Tuesday, December 8, 2009

Been A Long Month...

Haven't posted on here in the last month because I've been taking some time to reevaluate my thinking on some things and take some time to figure out where some things are going from here.
Been quite busy in the past month. Had dad and Colleen and some friends for Thanksgiving. The kids have been doing fairly well, and are pretty much keeping the same pace they've been doing at their schoolwork. Mike and I are fine. SSDD.

I am now down 21lbs since October 2nd. Wow has that been a rollercoaster ride for me. Thinking of how far I have yet to go, and how far I've already come has been a scary thing for me. The lowest I've gotten since I've been trying (which has been about 10 years) has been 220. I'm now at 279, though I suspect that once my little monthly friend leaves that number will inch a little lower.
Since I hit the 20lb mark, I decided to do something that I've wanted to do for some time, but haven't because I never felt good enough about myself to do it. I got my tongue pierced. Boy did I get a LOT of reactions to that one. You'd have thought I decided to cut my ear off or something. But I did it for ME. Not for anyone else.

I've decided that when I hit the 40lb mark, I'm going to do something else that I've wanted to do for me. I just haven't decided what yet. Maybe get my ears pierced again, or cut my hair different, or a perm or something. I just don't know yet.

I know it's going to be a long journey, not just a short trip, but I can't help but get discouraged sometimes when I try really hard all week and the scale doesn't move. Some days it's really hard to keep going, because I don't feel like I'll ever get there. I still hate the way I look a lot of days. I hate the way I feel. But it's getting better. Slowly.

3 comments:

St said...

Wow, 20# is great! I'm at the beginning of a weight loss journey. In fact I'm so close to the beginning that I am still cramming my face and gaining. I gained ten pounds in the last two months. I'm up to 220# with no end in sight. I've been looking up overeater's anon groups and stuff because I don't like the "skinny" focus of diet groups like WW.
What are you doing? Just eating better?
I got my tongue pierced in 99 and have always kept it. I LOVE it. It's not for anyone else, I just love having it!

Dawna said...

I still haven't had my tongue pierced yet. I did get my eyebrow pierced on New Year's Day 2001 and then had my belly button pierced later that same year. No one had much to say about my eyebrow that was negative, except for my ex and if I had wanted his opinion, I wouldn't have divorced him LOL. Again, congrats on the weight loss. You're doing great!

Bubba's Mom said...

26# so far, and that's the biggest amount I've lost in the last 12 yrs. I've got a looooooong way to go yet, but I'm hopeful that it will happen. One of the sites I'm on is Calorie Count. It's easy and helped me keep track of what I was really eating and just how many calories are in it. You'd be surprised at what the calories are in some of what people regularly eat.
At my highest I was around 300#. I cried when I saw what the scale said. That was one of the things that made me say this is it, I need to do something NOW.